Growing Up

We find out we are pregnant and it is such a great surprise. Then we give birth to these beautiful bundles of joy. We watch as they grow and sometimes cry when we think back to memories of when they were toddlers. But now we look into their eyes and they meet you at eye level. They have their own opinions. They have their own taste. It is amazing to watch them grow. To see how they turn into their own persons. But it so hard to see them grow. I look at my son who is turning into a young man. I cry sometimes thinking of when I was still able to cradle him. I cry at the thought that soon enough he will not be a baby anymore. Almost a teenager I watch and hope to hold on to this innocence as long as possible. He makes me promises to always be the same. But we as mothers know the steps that are to come ahead. We know one day he will love another woman. We know one day he will not need us the way he does today or at least think he doesn't. It is so bittersweet. We want to see who they grow up to be and yet we want to keep them as our small children. But as my son always says no matter how old he gets he will still be my child!

The Pits

OK so I am not sure about your child but my son has this thing with my arm pits. He loves the way they smell. He will lay his face any chance he gets in my armpits. I know its weird. I tell him all the time to leave me alone. But when it comes to "The Pits". He cant seem to walk away. What is it? I am not sure. I know it has to be my deodorant. But no matter what times of the day. He will curl up beside me and try to be sneaky. He will try to get into the pits. Now what makes it worse is that I am very ticklish. So I am trying to fight him off cause who wants someone in their pits and then I am ticklish.

SO is it just my son? Does your kid love your pits? Or maybe they love some other awkward part of your body!

Please let me know I am not alone. Or am I. Nope I am not cause there he is trying to get in my pits!!!

Ever Wonder

There are often times. That I sit and look at my son and wonder. Is he happy? Am I doing the best I can for him? Am I raising him the right way? Does he need more? Does he miss out on anything? But then I look into those big sleepy eyes of his and hear the following " You are the bestess mom ever". Even though at times I don't feel that I am. I have always had health issues and I was always sick through pregnancy till present I still have health issues. So I always felt that he needed to take care of himself in some sort of way. I guess that is why he is so mature the way he is. He is a little man. But even though he tells me those words. Even though I get constant hugs and " I love yous" I always wonder is it enough?

Am I the only one that feels this way? Do you ever feel this way? If so how do you make yourself feel better? Or what do you feel? DO you feel your job as a mom is 100%?

Tell me your thoughts

Saying Goodbye

We have all been through heart breaks. We have all been through that first fight with our childhood friend. But isn't so hard to deal with when it is your child going through it? My son and his best friend have parted ways. After we moved my son and his friends all kept in contact. But recently he has noticed that his BFF has changed. I have to say I feel bad for my son because he is an only child and the only contact he has with his friends is through phone and Face book. But to see my son hurt because he had to break off a friendship really breaks my heart. You try to make them feel better. You try to guide them through it all. But in the end they are still too young to understand that they will go through worse. That they will get over this. But I have to say that I am proud of my son. He took a stand he handled it maturely. He stopped it from going any further. You see his friend had changed and apparently had been hanging with the wrong crowd. His language started to change. His actions became a little out of hand. But my son came to me with this and told me. I am proud to say seems as if I am doing a good job in raising him. He shed a few tears cause he knew what he was having to do. But he did it and didn't let anyone tell him different. He knew that this behavior was unacceptable and that we as his parents would not approve.

Have you experienced this with your child? Have you had to hold them in your arms through the tough times of growing pains?

Please share your story!

Lazy Days!

Do you ever have those days when you sit and look around at your house and the laundry is piling up. The dishes need to be washed. The floors need to be mopped. But you just can't seem to get up and clean. The children are calling. They are waiting for you to get your rump off the couch. But all you want to do is be a lazy lady for the day. You want to sit and watch your shows for once. You want to shop online. You want to blog with your blogging friends and see what they are up to. Don't you just want that one day for yourself? Where you can be who you want to be for a day. A lazy good for nothing t.v. watching, blogging fool.

But at least that is what the outside world sees. They don't understand how hard it is to sit here and express to the world how I am feeling. Or to think of something creative that you may want to read. Or how many times you have to check to see if you have a new follower ( I lake to supporter). Follower just seems I don't know. Just not the word for me. They don't understand how much work and energy it takes hoping that someone will leave you a comment so that you can have that 5 seconds of adult conversation.

So I say why not. Take that lazy day! At least once a week we need a day where we stand up once and for all and say. I am not doing it!

Well try it out tell me if it works lol. Go ahead you know you want to!

Any Regrets?

Where I live it was storming really bad today. I started to think to myself would I ever regret things I said no to. You know what I mean. That one time you didn't want to play that game with them. Or that time you were too tired to read a story to them. There are so many times we say no because we get caught up in our everyday life. By watching television or talking with our friends. Or doing something that interest us. These things should not matter more than our children or spouse. Before you know it things can change right before our very eyes. I should know! A year ago my family and I were out shopping. We had a great time and then went out to dinner. We thought we would go home and watch some movies as we would normally do on a Friday night. Well who would have known on that August night that our lives would change. My husband had a bad accident. We thought we were going to lose him. He luckily survived but was disabled for a few months. He was our main bread winner at the time. I was at a job that was going nowhere fast. We lost it all. He had to be taken care of. Life still needed to go on. No one cares about your personal life. They care about you coming to the office. They want to know they can depend on you. They could but not before my family. See after this happened to my husband I learned you cannot take any minute for granted. You must live each day and enjoy each day. You must always say "I love you". See our love is what has gotten us through all the things we were about to go through. We were about to lose our home. We were about to have our lives changed. Who knew that morning that our lives would change forever. We had to stay with family members. Our son had to change schools 4 times in one year. Our whole lives were changed and still are changing. So much has changed over the past year. We have had some really bad times. But the one thing that gets me through every thing. Is that I have a strong family base. My husband is loving and supportive and our son God Bless him is a true blessing. From a child who was able to get whatever he wanted to a child that now gets nothing at all unless it is necessary. He is my true light each day. So this is what makes me think of when he asks me to do something. No matter how much I may not want to. Or how much it does not interest me. I know that I have to try my best to do it. Because in the end he would do anything for me. All he wants is to spend time with me. All he wants is for me to show interest in what he finds interesting. So I ask will you have any regrets for times you may have told a loved one NO!

Next time a loved one asks you to spend a little time with them. Make sure you do. Make sure that you don't end up with regrets.

Gotta Love that Man

Today I thought I would talk about my husband. Just a few seconds ago I received a text saying " I love you bye". Now how powerful is that message that you receive from your love one. When they are at work and busy. Just out of the blue I received this message and he just didn't know how much I needed to hear that. It has been a rough year for our family and knowing that he loves me and knowing that I have him on my side is so important to me.

It's crazy how good a little hello or I love you can change the way your day was going. Or how it changes your whole mindset. I love him and there is no doubt about it. He is a good man and I always make sure that he and our son know how much they are loved.

But boy doesn't it feel great when you hear it from them.
The best medicine to me is knowing and feeling the love of your family.

So what does your loved one do to make you feel all good inside?
What do you do to let them know each day how much you love them?